Over and Out.

This is the last time you walk into my life and think you can play with my emotions. I am not a pushover. You’re a poisonous, disgusting human being. You bring nothing but disappointment and pain. The Apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. A product of your mother. A toxic human, who can’t accept […]

Acceptance

Today was the day that my life changed for the better. Something that I never thought would happen occurred. “Congratulations! You have been offered a position in the Bachelor of Nursing!” I have accepted the offer, and next month will start the next chapter of my life! In 3 years time, I’ll be a qualified […]

Unsure

How can I be so sure that this is the real thing? how can I know for sure that your heart is in it for good. I’ve spent the last year drowning. The water is calm, I’ve broken the surface, I’m floating and breathing. But I can’t help the fear of impending doom. I can’t […]

9 Days Without You

We are 9 days into 2020, a new decade that I promised to be filled with success. I am 9 days into a world of no contact with you. I haven’t heard your voice. I haven’t seen your face. I didn’t even call you in a moment of trauma. I have been strong, a lot […]

Onwards

You walked back into my life and instantly it was like all the missing pieces instantly came together. I had this empty place in my heart that has been there since you walked out. It was healed. But not even 24 hours later, you said you regretted it. I felt each little piece of me […]

Time

“Good things take time,” It’s been 6 months since I went through the most traumatic experience of my life. I’ve been a single mother for 6 months, and I’m still as single as I’ve ever been. I’m working 2 jobs, and studying Nursing full time….but I’m so unbelievably down. I soldier on, and I put […]

End of a Chapter

A letter for all the people that have come into my life, and left me with a gaping hole in my chest. This is for you. I’ve never been able to express the psychological damage that I have received over the years. I’ve never been good at verbalising my feelings. I do know that I […]

Free

I’m learning how to love life again. I’m learning how to enjoy things with just my own company. I’ve learnt that I am truly not ready for a relationship and I’m okay with that. There are so many aspects of a relationship that I miss, however after what has happened, I’m still in an unhealthy […]

Hatred

I grit my teeth. I scream until my voice disappears. I cry. I repeatedly punch my pillow until my arms are exhausted. I lose my sense of self and my surroundings. This emotion inside of me doesn’t come out often. It’s always buried under the hatchet, and covered by the smiles, the laughs and the […]

Desire

What I would do to feel loved again…. Every fibre of my being craves it. I just want someone to love me. I can’t go out places without looking at other happy couples that are in their own bubble. There’s so many things I want to experience in life, but I can’t find any enjoyment […]